TAKE THIS TO YOUR GRAVE & I'LL TAKE IT TO MINE
Posts tagged love
It kills me to see my friends go through the same things I have. It kills me that I can’t fight for them or stand and defend them or rescue them. I just want to bury intertwined limbs and never let go. It kills me that I have to let people make their own mistakes, and grow on their own. But I know my beautiful, intelligent friends and strong. You have it in you, you’re bigger than this and you’re better than this. And the most important thing to remember is to not let these define you. You are not a statistic, you are not a sickness, you are not whatever they say you are. You are beautiful. And oneday the three of us will look back, and I will be so proud of you. I already am. Love always.
Seems like there’s always someone who disapproves
They’ll judge it like they know about me and you
And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury’s out, my choice is you
So don’t you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water’s rough
But this love is ours.
2:46 am
Everything is just so easy with him.
I don’t have to worry about texting him at odd hours, he usually never responds until the morning but I don’t feel silly or annoying. I don’t have to figure out the radio between how many times I text him first vs. he texts me. I don’t have to worry about saying the wrong thing, or talking too much. I don’t have to worry about admitting when I’m nervous, afraid or uncomfortable. I don’t have to worry about if hell wait for me after I leave for x many of months. I don’t have to worry about him not giving honest opinions. I don’t have to worry about sneaking out of his bedroom to go back to my own. I don’t have to worry about making up excuses. I don’t have to worry about not being good enough, or pretty enough. I don’t have to worry about defining relationships. I don’t have to worry about his intentions.
It just hit me, everything that used to stress me out about relationships, i dont have to deal with anymore.
Do you know how nice this?
All I have to do is love him.
Life doesn’t get any easier, or better.
xx.
1:34 am
Someone once told me my good heart was a curse. That it’d be my mission to try and help every hurt and tired soul, but some won’t be able to be saved, and it’ll destroy me, but I wouldn’t realize the damage I was doing to myself, trying to fix others, until it was too late. They asked me to sometimes, just walk away, save yourself.
Curse or not, if that’s my mission, so be it.
Just take my hand, I promise not to stop fighting.
1:40 am
I hate that you had to be that boy for me. I hate that you dared me to let you in, and then you stole a piece of me. I hate that you were the one to fix me and care for me. I hate that you let me put all my hopes, secrets and trust into you, and kept them safe, just like you said you would. I hate that after all this time had passed, nothing has changed; you’ve stayed the same and all your promises, still kept. Well except maybe the daydreams involving me and you and forevers. But most of all I hate that I still love you.
If I could have one wish, I’d wish it’d be him, not you.
But I guess time spent and lessons learned happened for a reason. Maybe I needed to grow up and grow strong before this. But if that’s the case, if that’s the purpose you served, why is it still you. It’s almost 2012, why can’t it be his turn.
