February 2012
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12:00
Blah, nervous.
Around the new year I decided I needed to go talk to a therapist about idk a bunch of issues, just sort through them so they’re no longer a cloud hanging over me. So I made an appointment at the schools health center the first week, and we pretty much just talked about generally hy I was here. He asked me a lot of super uncomfortable questions about my mental...
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January 2012
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“LIKE THIS: “I could never wear another uniform … I will forever be a...”
– Jorge
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“”I was able to live my dream - to play baseball for the best sports...”
– Jorge Posada
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The Things I do for Money
-_-
Seriously, I thought just being born would be enough claim. It’s good to know that I have no pride or integrity when it comes to this shit.
Fuck this.
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11:11 - Make a Wish
I don’t get it. Since I’ve been a little girl smoking has been the most disgusting thing to me. I was at a store one day and my mom told me she was going to hail a cab while I finish paying, when I got out of the store I couldn’t find her, then I spotted her down the corner smoking and I never looked at her the same. I’d go through her purse to take some money (stop...
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10:16 pm
Today’s been a long day. I just got off the phone with Jonathan, Chase read me a bedtime story and then Jon and I talked for about an hour. I just, blah. This past week at college has been amazing. My classes seem great, I’ve been on top of my work, my jobs are going well, I’ve been making time to see all of my friends and we’ve been having the best time, like I really am...
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I think life should be about touching the lives of...
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Getting calls from police officers that my mom is trying to take my clothes, oh, okay. My life is average. Or not.
6:15 pm
Well that was interesting…
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3:55 am
I told myself I wouldn’t give up on you, I told myself I’d keep fighting. So here I am, almost 4am, planning what I am going to say, figuring out how I am going to save you. I know I am only 21 but it doesn’t seem that hard, all I need is for you to agree, to let me help you, and well get through it. Just promise me you won’t give up on yourself.
We are better than this....
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2:46 am
Everything is just so easy with him.
I don’t have to worry about texting him at odd hours, he usually never responds until the morning but I don’t feel silly or annoying. I don’t have to figure out the radio between how many times I text him first vs. he texts me. I don’t have to worry about saying the wrong thing, or talking too much. I don’t have to worry about...
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“I remember when I was doing Rent and I was too thin, and I was doing that on...”
– Rosario Dawson. (via danielleyagodich)
I love her
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So. Hungry.
I know I shouldn’t weigh myself but I did. Since I got back from Aruba I lost 3 lbs, pretty good for someone my size. However, I’m pretty sure I gained it all back tonight. An entire box I macaroni an cheese for dinner, and I’ve been devouring this box of cookies. Uy.
I have no self control.
Food is too good.
12:25 pm
So my dad just called me and told me that my mom signed over all of her money, all the money and assets my grandparents left to her AND to my siblings and I, totaling somewhere between 23 and 28 million dollars, to her drug dealer boyfriend and his kids, and it is now my responsibility to talk to her and convince her to change the name of the beneficiaries back to myself and ary and the boys.
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2:56 am
I am trying so hard to stay awake, I just don’t want tonight to end.
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Overheard at Bloomingdales
Girl 1: so I called her a dirty, dirty whore
Girl 2: why?
Girl 1: I didn’t like her glasses, they looked weird. Anyway, she responded by saying my Chanel bag looks fake, so I let her have it. I just have it to her.
Girl 2: you fought her?
Girl 1: well it started just bitching but then she slammed her locker closed and caught my scarf in it so we started shoving
Girl 2: and now...
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I cannot wait until sex is my priority source of...
Last week I decided (along with 7 million other people) to start taking running seriously again. Except I didn’t really have time when Chase was home all day, and then I went to Chicago, so today was day three of intense running. Now, I have some health reasons, but primarily, I just want to look good at my wedding. So yes it’s only day three and so far I’ve run 23 miles, and let...
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fuckyeahonetreehillcaps:
Guys I’m having a breakdown.
I’m so excited for the premiere tomorrow.
But I just keep thinking that this is going to be the last one.
This is the last time we’re getting new episodes after a long hiatus.
The beginning of the end.
Everything is so bittersweet.
had a dream about the premiere last night. the dvr didnt record it so i ran into robbie’s room...
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I hate wedding dresses that aren't white.
I can handle a nice cream, or even an ivory (which one of mine happens to be), but when you start playing around with shades of pinks or even greens and grays, like what are you thinking? If you want a sash or if some details are colored, fine. But an entirely pink wedding dress? Girl this is not your bat miztvah or your sweet 16, take it off. You will have plenty of other times you can wear a...
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Potential client discussing setting up a meeting: “no worries Hilary, I’ll call you on Monday and we can discuss the details instead of emailing back and fourth. Have a good weekend!”
Um, no person. Why can’t you discuss this over email. Firstly, what are the chances I’ll be at my phone and have my schedule readily available when you decide to call. What if I have...
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Project Runway: All Stars
Top 5 (in no particular order)
Mondo
Rommey
Anthony
April
Jarrell
And holy fuck, PR, way to step it up on the prizes! A boutique in Neimans, all that equipment, guest editor, etc., dayyyummm!
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Secret?
I’m terrified.
Jonathan and I flew to Chicago this morning to close on our house. We’re at my brothers now waiting to get going. I knew this would be a big deal and nerve wrecking, but I don’t know, I didn’t expect to be nervous about this part of it. Don’t get me wrong, I’m excited, but it’s a big deal. Financially wise, I’m basically given...
On a scale of 1-10 I can't stand Jon about...
Sleeping in Chases room tonight. I just want to be done with everything, go back to Miami and have nobody bother me.
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4:34 pm
I can’t wait to have babies with Jonathan. I know not to bring it up again, at least anytime soon, but blah. I can’t help it. I’ve been taking care of Chase all day and while he was napping I ended up watching a baby story. And the couple on tlc was so contagiously smitten. I want to get pregnant with J and go through the whole process, ultrasounds, the delivery. And then...
7:25 am
Woke up this morning to find a note on my nightstand:
Morning beautiful-
Didn’t want to wake you, left breakfast for you two in the fridge. Thanks again for staying home, you’re an angel. Call me later, I’ll try to be home before six. Have a good day, love you!
-J-
Blah. How can you hate a boy who is this adorable, you just can’t.
Last night wasn’t too bad....
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Lots of forehead kisses this morning :)
Decided to sleep in Js bed last night, we ended up going to bed relatively early for us. Woke up to his alarm at 6am sharp, yuck. Laid there for a couple min with my arm over his waist, eyes shut, begging him not to go. I have to say I came up with some pretty good runway/escape/never go to work again plans. Saddly I was met with my typical Hil *forehead kiss* you know I don’t want to...
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I'd be such a happier person if humans didn't...
Or at least talk to me. Just seriously, shut the fuck up for one moment.
I love the days in Miami when I wake up, nobody’s in my apartment. Sit in bed and watch tv or flip through magazines until I decide to go out, maybe shop for a bit, walk along the beach, and then I realize what time it is and that I haven’t spoken a word all day. And then I go home, make myself dinner, take a...
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I've already failed my new years resolution: don't...
Well, maybe people should just do things my way and not piss me off.
And by people, I mostly mean my dad.
Whatever, here’s to not changing.